So sorry to read about your experience. My feeling is true friendship is one of life's most precious and rare treasures. You know you have it when those in your space support you through the darkest times of your life and you reciprocate. When you accept each other completely. Again, this is rare. I truly believe 99.999% of white people can not be friends with Black people because we live in a white supremacist nation and they must make a real commitment to share some of their power and privilege for permanent change to occur. That's a bridge too far for many white people, so we continue to fight against racism and inequality. There are a few white people willing to go the distance, but as recent events prove, they are much too few and far inbetween.